kyoxsatoshixmao

i can't stand it when people get mad at me for no reason or over something really stupid...also can't stand being ignored -_-
this sorta thing really happens far too often..i'm getting sick of it really...but there isn't much i can do...
even when i tell my friends that i feel like i'm being ignored or left out, they don't seem to care.....or acknowledge that i have even said anything at all -.-

nothing important here...just ranting yet again...

this is my 2nd semester at MSU so far..
i really need to bring my grades up -_- i have a C in almost everything and my GPA is 2.86
i need to get it to a 3.0 again...

my classes aren't very difficult, but since i don't study or read my textbooks...my grades suffer..

skipping my first class today so that i can get some work done on my printmaking project...i need to have a finished image before i go to class and have to face her with a half-assed picture that could be better...i hate that i'm skipping my class though considering it is one of those classes with a C as my average...i'll make a point to read my book later and take notes as i do so...

then after my printmaking class, i have to go to the library to get together with my group from my Spanish class so that we can put together our presentation on Argentina. -_- not looking forward to that presentation at all...first day of presentations is tomorrow......

next semester, in the fall, i plan to take Japanese...maybe it will be easier since i actually have more interest in it than i do in Spanish...all i know is that i need to make at least a B or better in all of my classes this semester and i have 2 C's atm that need to be brought up...

the rest of this month i will be working my ass off trying to get something accomplished so that i can hopefully get my grades up..

guess we'll see how well that goes...but if i pass with a C in those classes, i don't think i will complain...as long as i pass and it doesn't drop any lower................................

안녕~

it's pretty bad when you're around friends and normally everything is good...but for some reason you feel completely alone.
that's how i feel today..

i'm hanging out with friends, but most of the time i'm ignored...and if i'm not ignored, whatever it is that i want to talk about or look at or whatever immediately gets shot down with "i don't care" or "i'm not interested".....why can't people just pretend to be interested or at least say it in a more polite manner?......like "i'm sorry, but i'm not interested"...that sounds a lot better in my opinion..

everytime someone tells me they don't care about whatever it is i'm talking about, they make me feel so unwanted..it's like no one wants me around and i have no purpose to be hanging out with anyone....unfortunately, it makes me want to cry sometimes..even when i know it's not a reason to cry..but i just can't help it...

i just wish my friends would at least hear me out before shooting down whatever it is...i get enough of that from my own family..i shouldn't have to deal with that kind of indifference from my friends too...it makes me more depressed than i already am..
i don't want to tell them directly though because then they might get upset with me for being upset with them..but i just really, really can't help it.........


just needed to vent since i have no one to talk to about this situation...-_- i hate my emotions...

i'm a Dragon :D born in 1988 ^^
don't have much else to say for this though lol...

so my little sister is having a Christmas party for her and her friends...they get to do practically whatever they want...
i never had parties like this..i rarely got what i wanted growing up..she even had a cellphone before i did.

anyway, my mom is telling me to either go to the other room or go to bed just because i may be "disturbing their party"...wtf...it's my house too and i'm an adult...why can't i sit where i want to when i'm not disturbing anyone..no one said a word to me..they were too preoccupied with my niece.............why is it that my sister can get away with so much (she's so damn spoiled -_-) and i have to put up with it and never get to be in the same room as anyone in order to listen to my own music?...so i have to deal with whatever everyone else wants to hear but i can't listen to anything i want to unless i'm alone.................

i hate this and i honestly can't wait until this whole break is over and i can go back to school in January...i'm sick of being told i have to go somewhere else or turn it off......when do i get a chance to do anything?...it's not fair....................

 found my first class easily today…now i have a few hours to kill before the next one..it’s not until 3pm…and i already know how to get there…only cuz it’s on the way to the first -.- wish it was the other way around…and at least i can walk to them fairly easily..but it’s so hot D: can’t wait until it starts to get cold again.

will definitely be losing some weight this semester lol…plus, my first class is more or less a shop class…i get to work with power tools in a room without a/c :’D what fun……

i’m back in my dorm for now, so i’ll probably be doodling or something while i cool off…only to go walking again later thanks to that one class
-_-;

i’ll probably be back in the dorm again by 6pm depending on when the teacher lets us out…

 i'm moving tomorrow...er..today?...lol i'm still packing and trying to get all of my stuff organized...

but i start university Wednesday :D
i'm still incredibly nervous though, but i know i can deal...i mean, i somehow managed when i went all the way to Hinds & the four years i spent at PRCC...but i also had some sort of transportation from family during those times..this time, i'll be stuck on campus..no matter what o-o'

anyway, just thought i would give a quick update since i keep forgetting i have this thing...
now i'm going back to my really slow and last minute packing ^^

안녕!

i've made more ringtones ^^ this time the majority of them are JRock...but a couple of them are KPop...i intend on making more when i get the chance to do so...

http://www.4shared.com/dir/peR4bHAp/newest_ringtones.html 

just click on the link above to check out the ringtones...and if ya like them let me know ^^

ja ne xD

 semester's finally started & so far so good...

hard to believe this will be my last semester here at PRCC o.o

anyway, over the holidays, i drew a lot of stuff...but almost everything i drew was either entirely inappropriate for deviantART or just not worthy of posting on dA....lol [i has dirty mind] ;P

i post all the inappropriate drawings on my y!gallery account...and sometimes, i will draw a clean version of something and post it to dA...but i rarely do that...

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i'm currently working on drawing some characters i came up with and writing a story about them...i plan on trying to make a short comic or something with it...but if i do..again, it won't be posted to dA xD it's a yaoi :P
my characters are interesting i think...and i am finally getting better at drawing the same thing more than once...it's still difficult, but i'm working on it...

this semester, i think i'm going to do photography for special studio...but at the same time i'm wondering if i should try cartooning again...or just go with colored pencil drawing or painting or something i know i can do easily......i think i should stick to cartooning/sequential art as a hobby...i'm still trying to get the hang of drawing different poses & expressions...so idk......

one of my drawings:

^ an example of one of my drawings that i won't post on dA lol...

i was watching the preview MV for "Beautiful" by B2ST (Beast) and thought i'd make some icons ^^

they're a little misshapen...you may have to edit the size depending on what site you use them on or whatever...but i hope you enjoy them...

you can download them here:
http://meant4theflies.deviantart.com/#/d32vt1j

please comment if you download ^^
[and if you're a member of dA, add it to your faves ;P ]